Posts tagged Lilja Bloom
Distant: Emma Suzanne

01. Writer

Emma Suzanne


02. Theme

Distant


03. MUSIC INSPIRATION

Parov Stelar
feat. Lilja Bloom:
Coco


04. WRITING

An important relationship

Away
That’s you
Far, as in a place
but now also distant
in heart.

Distant,
but distinct.

I don’t resent you
We finally
learned to keep our distance
Still
there's meaning

I remember a time I longed for you
A painful yearning
On the banks of the Arakawa
looking out beyond
where the highway separates
the Naka river from the main
A small island of concrete
in the lapping ripples
The sea river

And I felt the pain
Pain from confusion
At times, intense
Other times distant

It lapped
up and down like the waves
But indeed
a constant tugging on the heart
that admittedly,
took a long time to settle

And before that
The time I met you
when curiosities unfolded

The time I knew you
The bond we formed
Something lost, connected.
A surging, dangerous river
The time I had you.
My soul, unashamed
A slippery animal

We never admitted
The depth of what we forged
Guilt
made it deeper
Maybe

The responsibility we never took

Distance.
The inevitable
that would separate our mess
Our only reprieve
The way out.  

Yet oceans between us
was little relief
from all
that we failed to sort out 

For you too?
I wondered
It pulled on you too
Hesitation
Persistence

But the purpose of us
wasn’t for each other

You unraveled me.
A catalyst, you were 

The waves they rocked
So close to the edge
Only the distance would tell

Make it more distant
the bank
from the waterline

A river calmed. 

Distance is time
Distance is learning
Distance achieved,
Wisdom.

I’m grateful.
I won’t forget. 

Now
even if made possible
our interactions
are all spent

We only exist in thoughts
Recollections. 

An untraditional, but
important relationship.